9:08 PM

Although i usually try to comfort ppl by trying to say everything will be fine, I hate it when i was told. But i knew they are all comforting words. They meant to make ppl calm down, meant to make ppl feel better. But somehow it makes me feel even more worse. To me, IT'S NOT GOING TO BE ALRIGHT. Cos it's my future, my own life. YES, i admit. Things can be fine soon. But why will it be fine in the end? Because we accepted things that we dint wanted to initially. We tried to adapt, to change our perceptions so as to accept. So eventually things turn out fine as we have embraced the cruel truths that hurted us. Inevitably, I have to accept for me to live in peace

I really feel like crying.. Hide in one dark corner and cry all my hearts out. I do not know how to face ppl. I feel like i have lost all my social skills/communication skills. Disheartened, Demoralised, Exhausted, Drained.. I dont have the right mind to think of anything decent. Pls grant me a wish. pls be back soon. pls give me strength to move on.

written, CINDY