1:27 PM

Today is saturday again. I feel so lethargic. Have to wash my clothes, sweep the floor in this hot and humid afternoon.

SMU called to say that i'm shortlisted for the interview of my second choice - business management. I don feel good abt it. Business manangement interview? The scene of a panel of judges with all the rest of the candidates debating and answering the questions the judges posed really freak me out. I can see myself sitting there looking stunned and confused when posed with the questions. ARGH! i just feel so pressurized. And that essay writing is driving me crazy! It's has been a long time since i wrote a decent and complete essay. *even though i have applied to retake my GP, i havent been studying* so I guess i have to pray for miracles to happen. Just hope i will be able to make it through. Although i want accountancy more than business, i still want myself to secure a place in SMU. AT least. hmm. Pls save me!!!

It's nearly 2pm now. and i havent do anything i was obliged to do. URGH! and i have to go for tuition at 5. and that job that i have is really draining me. so sickening! there are ppl there getting 6.50/hr and there i am getting 6/hr instead. Why is the world so unfair? Wat make me even frustrated is i have been doing lots and lots of never-ending works without any acknowledgement. SHIT! i should have just leave the place and wash my hands off everything. And i just look how they are going to manage without me!! But i CANT. i couldnt bring myself to do it. I did bring the matter of ppl having 6.50/hr up to the agency. And there she is bombarding me with reasons that doesnt really make a sense to me. But i remember smth she said. Have to ask ur officer whether are u eligible for it. So am i eligible? i think i am! i did so much works and when i asked my officer abt it, she seemed to be in a difficult position! HEY! why is the bank stingy? EEEK! i really regretted taking up this offer. Ya i know i learnt alot. But i sacrifice alot too. Nothing can be achieve without sacrifice ya. Just hope i will get a reply which i'm satisfied with. I nv try to think of wat will happen if they refuse to give me 6.50/hr. Ok i'm not that desperate for money. *although i'm* haha but u have to be fair right? They are all A level holders and we went in around the same time to work. So why are they eligible for it while i'm not!?!? CONCLUSION: that stupid agency is not doing their job well!

pls i want u back in my life now

written, CINDY