5:14 PM

sometimes i feel that i'm a failure..
haha. it's so hard to put them in words..

but then i believe GOD is fair.
he is always fair to everyone.
even if one is disabled, i believe he/she will have special and unique personality/smile/talent..... so no one is left unnoticed.. and ya no one is perfect..

sometimes things dont really go my way.
but then again, life is about learning... learning how to compromise.. how to work in different environment.. how to even do simple things like starting a conversation with others by saying hello.. how to be discerning...
so when things dont go my way? i'm not despair.. i wil learn from the mistakes..

sometimes when relationships turn sour or i'm left with just few friends..
i blame myself.. blame myself for not making good use of the opportunity to maintain relationship.. blame myself for not making the time and effort to stay close with them..
but then again, 1 best friend is better than many acquaintance... i have embraced the fact that i'm not blessed with the capability of handling and maintaining relationship with many friends.. but i'm still blessed.. because i still have best friends.. Friends that i can really count on..

sometimes i just pity..
sympathise those that are so normal.. (so normal that they actually go unnoticed)
but then again, it's not always good to be under the glam light. haha.
sympathise those that are trying hard to attract attention just to make sure that they are noticed..

sometimes i dream..
dream that one day i will be able to cope well under pressure...
dream that one day i will do well and make my parents proud of me...
dream that i'm already in university..

written, CINDY