4:46 PM

hahax. i'm so bored. hmm how come i'm always feeling so bored? aiyo wat a question
to ask. i'm abit irritated by my com. but i'm just lazy and impatient to restart my com. ok i will bear with it.

next week will be a busy week. NO NO, i'm saying every week is a busy week especially when tuesday starts...
Tues- School ends at 1.45 but i have CCA
Wed- CCA day
Thurs- School ends at 4.15 but i have tuition
AND fri there's all three tutorial lessons!
and this cycle carries on every and every week.
i just cant wait for CCA to stop on TUES! so that i can enjoy the early dismissal. Sometimes when thurs is drawing near, i can feel myself becoming more and more tired. AND i will sleep like a pig on sat! This is killing me. i'm dying for CCA to stop! for the J2s to step down!

Next week will be considered a much more busy week with all the tests and NAFA in just four days. Anyway, monday is a rest day just hope i'm prepared. Reason: when tues starts, there's no time for me to slack and waste. Since the block tests, i've not been going out and enjoying. Sometimes, I'm dread going to school. hahax. and i'm going to make use of this sunday to go out!!!

This few days had been emotional to me. i donno why. maybe my tear glands are really that active. i feel that i'm like a tap. when someone just press a button, my tears will immediately flow down. i know that ppl will associate me with childish and inmature thinking. but don i want to change? i want to change DEFINITELY. but i just couldnt. i donno why. i feel like i'm a complete failure. i nv achieve anything good in my life. AND never will i be able to do so. what can i even do when i can't even accomplish a simple thing?

i have to start to learn not to be affected by others so easily. i must not allow others to think that i'm WEAK! i have to stand for myself! I MUST!

written, CINDY