3:35 PM

finally. why finally? hahax. i'm actually blogging.. suddenly the feeling of blogging and reiterating everything is gone.. maybe i'm just too busy doing my schoolwork, dancing for dancework, watching tv and SHOPPING. It's really tedious to talk abt evrything again when the changes are so sudden. i guess my this blog is full of dust or maybe maggots are crawling all over.. hahax. i really don feel the momentum to write anything.

NOW, i'm slacking.. BLOCK test over so i'm slacking.. i don understand. i have been thinking alot these few months. In retrospect, i feel i'm being too childish and naive. i don recognise the fact that ppl do change and it is hard to maintain and stay together... all these need both parties to accomodate and compromise. and i feel i'm not giving alot. Friends are the one tat really makes me reflect. Evrytime i laugh talk smile joke and behave without thinking.. without realising i might hurt someone during all these times. i'm really sorry. sometimes when i think, i felt tat i'm abit impulsive and rash. but den it's kind of late to say sorry. i know ppl are not so petty. but i don want them to feel that i'm so ignorant and neglecting other ppl's feelings.

during study period i donno how to reply when ppl say did i study?
yes i did
no i didnt
i will say the truth. sometimes i did study but i just feel it's not enough. so of cos, i will wan to study more and say ya i did study but not detailed enough. i really feel tat it's really difficult to say anything when one say he/she didnt really study and he/she scored quite well for the test in the end. So i feel it's alright to say the truth. i think it's better. HAHA!

hmmm. i WANT TO CHANGE!..
change the way i look at things.. change the way i react to changes. change the way i behave..
i think i will have to try HARD.



SO.... if i have offended anyone, i'm so sorry.. sorry my dear friend. i love you.

written, CINDY