8:25 PM

i felt so USELESS...
completely utterly helpless...
i donno wat i'm thinking.
i am being so panicky nervous...
my legs even go numb and weak..
FIRST EVER IN MY LIFE...
this will be the toughest obstacles i will ever been through....
i hope.
i felt so overstressed...
over stretched.
over whelmed
it's just too extreme..
i worked hard
but the result does not reflect how hard you work right?
pleae assure me...
i really hope that this blog only allows my entrance..
no one else.
no one.
i felt so depressed..
COMPLETELY given up..
so disappointed with myself.
i cant imagine the time when i'm going to take back the papers..
i cant really think wat am i going to do...
accept the fact?
or run away?
but how far can i run away?
or how long can i run away from reality..?
this cruel and unfair life of mine...
is suffocating..
tortuous...
when i can left this place...
to a better one.?
let me know if u found one..
i felt so terrible.
i want to grow up suddenly.
FAST AND I MEAN NOW..
impossible right?
hahax.
i'm just consoling myself
comforting myself..
let me rest....
IMPRESSIONABLE....
easily influence.
fickle-minded.
when can i learn to be more independent...
learn to make decision.
learn to really...
give me some advices....



LET ME GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

written, CINDY