6:09 PM

wat shit..
i should be undergoing depression now..
ya SHOULD BE.
cos, i haven been doing well for my english.
sad to say it's never...
maybe i should just be contented with how i fare but i just cant.
without english, everything is a no-no..
i felt lethargic.
"the more u push me, the harder i will bounce back"
like wat hy always say...
Apparently, i am telling myself repeatedly to work hard and never to give up.

My cousins came to Singapore on Saturday. Both girls were aged 9 and 8 respestively. When they came to my room, they were asking for storybooks...
ENGLISH STORYBOOKS.... The elder girl took the storybook from my hand and start writing and copying the words down on a exercise book. *my unused exercise book* She actually asked for a dictionary to check for meaning... i'm tramatised. It's good to start reading from young. She read the storybook to me and there were only minor error... They were indonesian. and they study in indonesia...

Amazing? i ponder..

Am i that hardworking when i'm young?
i doubt so. i'm just lazy. i regretted it. anyway, it's just over.

Move on...

SOmetimes i felt the urge to come speciallly online just to blog out everything i had in my mind. i dont want to swallow all my troubles and treat it as nothing have ever happened before. i want to talk about what i feel and everything.

but somehow, i cannot form any words...
or
i'm reticent.

felt quite sad that i cant join gen and paul.
heard that they bought alot of stuffs..
hahax. so enjoy and relax.
next time i must make it...hahax

so tired. life goes on..
it will never stop because of me..
i need to be optimistic..
i should stop thinking of buying things..
concentration and focus is essential.

ok maybe i think after school?
*hmmm*

i haven check my physics mcq..
should i check it now?
ok i have checked...
i have at least 6 questions correct for my MCQ...
anyway i am prepared to score F for physics..
i am..

GPP...
need to file up and prepare for EOM...
oh my gosh...
That's fast.. First draft this week...
okok.. next week bio spa..
i have to stay calm..
ok maybe i should stay at coffee bean and slack for one whole day..
and don think of any work... relax first...

Basically, i felt disheartened..
i am asking myself today why should i be in JC..
Why not poly..?
but since i have chosen this path. i cant turn back the time.
aiyo, so demoralising...
ENLIGHTEN ME PLEASE.....

let me see some light.... **** dotx...

written, CINDY