7:28 PM

overwhelmed with lots of stuffs.
wat can i say? or how can i put them into words.?
the most appropriate and suitable words to describe them completely.

just now talked abt stuffs.. felt tat it's just so weird. why do we always longed for something tat no longer existed anymore? why?

why cant we treasure tat moment?

maybe because of some circumstances?
some external factors that are uncontrollable?

it's kind of contradicting though.

05s202...

i think i'm just so helpless. a girl?!? i felt so useless. haix. anything i also cnanot handle well. i'm not even fit to be a good girl. i am so clusmy forgetful adamant wilful. everything bad. my handwriting sucks too. ha. have to accept the fact. cruel fact. but who cares.?

really. words cannot describe my feelings.

jc life. ok i totally agreed to what people say abt jc life---stressed and homeworks just piled up when u don do them for one day. i thought i can handle all this matter. i was wronged. i breakdown completely when i failed my bio test, when i don do well for chem. if i continue like tat, i think my tears will be dried by this year. maybe becuase i set high expectation for myself or maybe i don wan history to repeat itself. whatever it is, it's a fact that jc life is not as easy as u think it is. It is not the norm anymore. normal schooling where never do homework or anything is like nothing. To jc students, although some teachers never scold, but when tests come you can see tat you are actually browsing through lecture notes scanning through them finding main points hoping to get a pass is just "impossible".

Whenever i walked into LT and sit down, routine goes on. i started to copy blindly. i may seem to understand at that moment but i can forget easily too. And physics, the lecture doesnt seem to get into my mind at all. It's just looked as if it will go on forever.

i still remember how i was planning shopping list in sec. school during lessons. how i talk and play in sec. school during lessons. how i was day-dreaming away thinking of where to go after school or even wat to eat during recess.

NOW. it is almost impossible. you cant afford the time.

yeah time is the most crucial factor. 2 years of jc life. i can just tell myself it will just pass easily. but 2 years to cover so many chapters. oh my god.

but haix. always look on the bright side of life.
when there's a will there's a way.
i have choosen this path i have to go on.

yeah with determination!

hahax

written, CINDY