7:10 PM

suddenly overwhelmed with lots of stuffs.

everything around me changes. ppl. environment.?

now, i'm able to control my tears better. better? ya. not more easily. my tears flow down easily. donno why. evrytime when i felt sad, i couldnt help it. i just don want others to see me as "attracting attention,gaining sympathy from others" cos i'm not. and i don wan to be named as a cry baby. i cried. and who knows? friends.? i just couldnt find a perfect one to talk to? nah. just tat i donno wat to say. i don wan to be known as hypocrite liar. i donno how to describe how i'm feeling. although i know friends are around me. however i still have the feeling of being lonely. being lonely with friends? confusing huh? i also got confused and puzzled. wondering why i think tat way. i'm just contradicting myself.

having a boyfriend doesnt mean tat friends are not impt. i just envy those tat has a bestest friend with her. shopping?? outing?? there's always tat bestest friend for u. sometimes i just donno how to express myself well. to let my firneds know how impt they are to me.

if u are able to choose ur friends will u? it's just fated.

written, CINDY