ok.. i'm very frustrated now.. haix.. wat shit lohx.. my com seemed to be not funtioning well.. when i went to the website i just could get through.. ARGH!!! i din really do homework this few days.. i just din have the mood to settle down to study and do tutorial.. i just wan to slack. hmmm.. today i went to return the boots to sj den i was asking who was she with just now...? ya the answer was just as expected.. the girl she was with just now has a boyfriend.. and ya that girl was with her boyfriend... it's is not a secret anyway... it's just something normal.. ordinary? ok.. don talk abt this.. somehow felt a distance towards alot of ppl.. i donno wat to do or wat to say? i'm not complaining or asking for any sympathy.. sometimes i just wan someone else more to listen.. like friends? ya i know i have friends.. true friends.. but how can i put them into words so that u wont get the wrong ideas? i don wan to be accused of badmouthing others.. or being a hypocrite.. i'm not.. i just need someone to listen,someone else to lend me her listening ears.. maybe i should pluck my courage to just call u all.. u may be thinking why cant i start a conversation and tell u all tat? sometimes i felt something pulling me back.. having a boyfriend doesnt mean tat friends are not important.. i really do wan my friends to know.. whenever i felt tat way.. i told myself to be strong.. and to be more optmistic and learn to accept.. and don be so narrow-minded.. i tried.. although i'm not 100% sure tat i'm ok.. tat i can get over tat.. at least i try.. however sometimes i just couldnt stand it.. i cant say i cant be bothered tat easily.. i just hate myself for being so easily to be affected by others.. ya.. somehow i felt tat i really cant stand my daddy.. i donno lohx.. others' daddy are so concerned abt their family.. their children.. but i cant feel any of his care.. he will only say tat my marks are not up to standard.. and he can say that i'm fortunate to be born in this family.. i mean i don think so lohx.. i don get wat i wan.. i need to save save and save just to get wat i wan.. he actually said tat wat handphone is he buy de.. this and that.. no lohx.. is not him lohx.. is my mummy... my mummy worked hard for the family.. he doesnt even help up and all he does is nag nag and nag.. he always not happy with my marks and grade.. everything he also want to have a word.. i felt so helpless...
maybe he really care.. but i just cannot sense it..
written, CINDY
Hello
Hello, darlings. The name's CINDY. I am female/male.
Me
NINEteen
15 December
Saggitarus
Dancer
♥ CHOCOLATES
♥ ice-cream/cakes
♥ Balloon/flowers/Swing!
♥ Everything that is CHECKED/Coat
♥ RED! brown purple
♥ Mickey/Minnie Mouse
♥ Princess/Tiara
♥ MY LONG HAIR
And the list goes on ...
WANTS
* RED leather handBAG
* White/Red Striped leather watch
