6:28 PM
with so many stuffs happening.. i felt i'm lost.. so lost.. lost in the woods? (i hope). it would be better if i'm lost somewhere in the world.. no one will ever found me.. will not find me crying.. it would be better if i'm lost somewhere.. i will be oblivious to everything.. ya everything..
somehow i felt that it would be better if i would just keep quiet and be ignorant to wat is happening around me...
everything just went wrong
went for ogl camp.. although it's like only two days.. but i could feel that i'm cant keep up to wat's happening between my friends.. everything outside.. zosma din do very well for the camp.. actually i am so disheartened.. discouraged.. dismoralised.. nothing much i can do... i being the game ic.. was not any strict AT ALL and i gave them their full marks easily.. i am so gullible... it was so infuriating to find out tat my og mates had a hard time pleasing the game ic for the full marks.. ya and snide remark had been heard.. i think should be coming to us... HATE THEM!!.. maybe i was getting more and more biased towards them.. but who wont get angry when u heard someone saying.. "dont block the way lehx" in chinese.. he should know it himself. wat kind of sportmanship are they displaying? they only know wat winning is all abt.. any integrity in them? i totally doubt so. they had disappointed me. resent. period.
while i was fuming abt all this unfairness, something else came to my mind. i cant really say wat but mulling over the problem will only make me more upset. she could has just told us everything. she couldnt lie to us. could she? actually i thought we were wrong..accusing her of thing which she did not do but i was completely wrong. gen was not tat type lohx.. gleaning secrets from others.. so we thought u were right at first.. but after tat eye-witness incident by gen, i lost all my trust and faith in u? u say u don see a need to bluff us.. so why do u wan to bluff us or i can say bluff her? maybe we should have a talk. u wan?
somehow everything have changed. times past fast. something will change eventually right?
written, CINDY
