maybe many will know... today is already 15th nov ... donno why.. felt tat my com is lagging today.. every word i type doesnt seem to be appearing on the screen... it is because the com is getting old.. and it is rusty... or that it has been resting for too long.. and it need to warm up first... watever it is ... i think it is rather seem to be testing my patience...
now the o levels are ending soon.. but as i can see.. it is not ending NOW... counting.. ya... 5 more days left... but still i felt it is not reachable... but compared to the past.. yes.. we have really come so far and now is not the time to say give up... maybe many are over excited abt the coming of the end of o level.. but to me... haix... i just felt so miserable... i am like a bird trapped in the cage losting all my freedom... but i have noticed tat slight of hope.. tat glimspe of light is coming nearer and nearer... sometmes i hope the time to pass real fast during this period of time... but i know... i will be getting old sooner if the time past tat fast... hahax.. ironic?
i really have to say.. this year.. i have the happiest times.. and of cos.. the most miserable and difficult times... braving the storm together with them... i realised how important friends are for.. and i need not have to act in front of my bestest friends.. yes.. u need not have to hide.. they will understand... this year flew really fast.. in the twinkling of the eye.. i will be 16 soon.. end of 2004.. donno why.. it seems to be end of many things this year.. end of my schooling in nchs.. end of the times where i will be able to sit the class with so many ppl.. end of the times where i played during all the dance rehearsal and performances.. end of our friendship..? nah.. never.. in the past.. i never really enjoyed my life.. maybe i think.. yes.. laughing and smiling all the way.. being cheerful and optimistic.. maybe i forced a smile once..? twice..? i think it is time for me to grow up... in the next year.. i will be in different environment... no one can help me... only myself.. being mature also means i wont have to let ppl worry for me... maybe it is tedious.. but i have to.. right..? if i don grow up now..? when will i be able to do so... am i being nagging... haix.. so much so much.. really hopes it left happy memories in my mind.. can time really heal wounds? hahax.. i think maybe a change of environment plays an important factor too..
p/s... hey.. really wants a group photo with u all.. laughing and smiling...
weather: rainy...
written, CINDY
Hello
Hello, darlings. The name's CINDY. I am female/male.
Me
NINEteen
15 December
Saggitarus
Dancer
♥ CHOCOLATES
♥ ice-cream/cakes
♥ Balloon/flowers/Swing!
♥ Everything that is CHECKED/Coat
♥ RED! brown purple
♥ Mickey/Minnie Mouse
♥ Princess/Tiara
♥ MY LONG HAIR
And the list goes on ...
WANTS
* RED leather handBAG
* White/Red Striped leather watch
