7:36 PM

he a guy who likes to play.. he a guy who only knows how to have fun... she donno what he will do in the future and he is trying to give it all up... she donno how to help him.. but maybe he dont need her help.. she is quite confused.. but he may not listen to her.. she cant fathom out why he ever think of giving up.. giving up when he is already lagging behind.. she is already laden with problems but she donno what to do to help him.. and maybe she cant ever help..
hmmm... felt like downloading songs now.. but i donno what to download.. i haven buy the jay cd.. haiz. wait ba.. actually have the money but wanna spend on somewhere else.. so..? haha no cd first la..u know something.. i resent ppl acting innocent nehx.. i mean just do ur own things ma.. why bother to help when u know it is wrong.. and even act as if nothing has happened.. good acting skills huh...whatever lohz.. i just don understand lohx.. today.. studying bio again.. haix.. need to memorise.. haven even half the book.. no time le.. i donno tomorrow going school ma lehz.. so sianz... haiz.. do u think this can read chinese characters..? i don dare to take the risk.. haha.. hmmm.. time flies so fast.. and now is already sept 14... i am going to leave nan chiau.. hahax`__ living for the past 15 years and so.. and studying all year long... so fast.. maybe i really wan to leave this school immediately cos of all the painful memories i had.. but i will miss my bestest friends..

why when she wanted to let go.. they sort of just realise her exist.. why when she don wanna think of it.. he just bring all the memories back for her.. why when she wanted to cry.. they are not there.. why when she feel like leaving the world.. they are not the one to stop her... she donno what are they thinkin actually.. she cant figure out.. and cant predict what will be their next move... and him too`___ haiz.. what a flawless lie he told to her... and she believes it all... and the most hurtIng is.. he lied to her many times.. making use of her innocence.. she is so gullible and simple-minded.. and he lied to her.. and worst of all she din know abt it.. what can i say..?  

written, CINDY